It's been a long time since my last post. I didn'f want my next entrt to be something about me being angry. But that seems to be the story of my life; anger. I can't stand for a person to get mad at me about something that has no control. Shit comes up and some shit is just not purposefully done. Now I can completely understand if I did something out of neglegence. But neglect is something that just don't describe me. Get a grip and grow the fuck up! Yeah I said it...GROW UP! Getting mad at somebody because they break up with your brother, because they delete from tgeir facebook friends list, or getting mad at your child because they aren't living their life the way YOU want them to. How about acting spoiled? You NEVER have to wait to be picked up because your ride is ALWAYS at least 20 minutes early. Then the very second they're running late you act like the universe evolves around you.

What To Do?

I just came up with an idea to make my life happier. Before I get started on how, I do not need any criticism from anybody. This is solely based on my experience. I stopped smoking weed a couple of years ago so I can get my life together. Apparently that was not the thing to make my life better. My life is still the way it was back when I was smoking weed. What I had to do to make my life better was to cut lose everybody who made my life difficult. Friends and family. But at the same time I have came to realize that I can relate to Beyonce's song, "Me, Myself, and I." In her song she took an oath. And so am I. Nobody's true to you. Not honestly true. So I'm not thinking bout anybody anymore except for me and my child. Fuck a nigga and a hoe. I don't need a nigga to be happy and I dont' need a hoe to have fun. I'm good all on my own. It hurts though. I'm not getting all mushy and shit, just saying whats true. It hurts to find the people you have trusted and broke your back for are only there to leach off you. It don't matter what they're leaching. It can be anything. To them the sky's the limit. And here I find myself standing in front of them, wondering what is going on in their head. Why they chose me or why they even waste their time plotting against me. I'm a good person. But not anymore. I'm going to get mine and make them wish they hadn't did to me what they had. You never miss your water til your well runs dry. And they gonna be the ones t tell you first hand what it's like. I don't ask for much, if anything at all. But I guess people like me ment to be walked all over and stabbed in back. That's why i'm making a change. I'm nobody's door mat. And people are going to wonder what got into me. Why I decided to resort to how I was before I reached adult hood. Life IS shoryt and i'm going to live mine til the fullest.